JEE Trauma Flashback

Forget the past. Keep performing well in your job & keep learning new skills, and you can become as successful as any IIT graduate.

I totally forgot I gave JEE until I read this post.

Looking back, my JEE Main rank was 3.5 lakh. I started with a job that didn't pay anything for the first three months, and then I earned just 15k per month. Now when I see how far I've come - from earning 15k monthly to 90 lakhs annually in just 8 years - I sometimes think about what would have happened if I had studied harder back then. Maybe I would have gotten a better job right after college and wouldn't have had to struggle so much.

But honestly, everything happens for a reason. I used to feel bad about it, but not anymore. If I had gotten into a good college and landed a comfortable job easily, I probably wouldn't have pushed myself so hard after graduation. Being in my comfort zone might have stopped me from putting in all that extra effort that eventually got me where I am today.

Hahaha its same for me 20 years later, for u its 7 but will Remain for 70 yrs and more, its drilled and cemented at centre of core of innermost consciousness, don’t fight this feeling of resignation just to live with it.

What's your current CTC now?

I was exactly in your situation. Believe me that while JEE is an amazing opportunity(can't deny its importance), it's not the end all

My brother cracked JEE under 10 rank and similarly CAT as well. Even he always says he's seen so many people in his career who aren't even IITian or bitian but stretched and excelled in their careers beyond most IITians

The biggest benefit with being an IITian is the peer group you get and the inevitable comparison your mind makes and that makes you strech your goals automatically. That's something a normal guy has to dream and aspire on his own

Someone I know had failed his 12th boards. Got into a below average engineering college after a year since he went into depression. He used to be scared of applying to jobs because of this set back and would work very hard to overcome that inferior feeling. He's currently working for Google. And as per him, the only feeling that gets rid of this inferior feeling is comparing yourself with your past and not with someone else's journey. Took him about 6 years after engineering to come to terms with this.

I wasn't good at math in school, and even flunked in math in class 8. I was very apprehensive about my class 12 math result. Though I managed to clear it, I still get dreams about it - that my board math exam is not cleared and I have to prepare for it. It is terrible.

Since you are bothered about proving your worth, probably your family or your near and dear ones are to blame for this. People around you have put this in your mind that you aren’t good enough until you go to an IIT. A degree is only a part of life. It doesn’t rule your life. And it should never.

There will always be someone who’s above you and who is below you in life.

Try to gain a different and deeper perspective. It may help.

I feel the same , i feel lost in life daily when i login to work for service based company, i regret u have not done enough hard work the work the people everything i feel not meant for me, i gave the gate for psu which i was not able to clear , and due to family condition i had to start work. But this is something which i feel now, i wish i could have go back in time and start prep again