My Happiness or Family’s ? - I feel trapped

Hey Grapevine folks, felt like sharing something deep that happened to me in last few months.

I am a 25M and I was in a 1.5 Years of relationship with a girl I met on Hinge. With her everything felt so easy. We got a lot of hobbies in common, we used to dance, sing, cook together. I am into playing guitar as well so I taught her how to play it, she plays really great now so we used to jam for hours. My life in Bangalore became so easy despite being so far from home. We were of same age, deeply in love, bestfriends, comfortable af and much more.

Things started going really bad when we both were deeply in love with each other and have to talk about what next related to marriage, because there’s severe caste issue in my family.

Last month I went home and revealed my relationship to my mom and dad. I come from a typical Marwari Rajasthani Family so you all can already guess my dad’s mentality about intercaste marriage.

Ofcourse my dad said straight up No for it, “Samaj mai meri ijjat chali jaygi, tune ye kadam uthaya hi kyu, agar ye hone diya toh sar utha k nahi chal paynge hum log, tujhe samaj se lena dena nai hai par humko toh in sab k saath hi rehna hai idhr etc etc etc” I was broke, my dad thinks that I have did some crime. I understand that there’s a major Generation Gap and I cannot explain them the concept of Love, and compatibility.

My mom was fine with it, but she used to cry every day not because I want to do love marriage but because of my Dad, we cannot do this and my son wont be happy.

At the end, I know my parents are wrong but yet they are my parents and I couldn’t see them sad. I felt helpless and had to breakup with my Girlfriend

I cried everyday missing her, I feel like I have a big void in my life. Sometime I feel that its fine to sacrifice on few things for your parents but yet I feel like ek hi toh life hai aur pyaar krne vale logo k saath na bita sako toh kya hi mtlb jeene ka