Losing my mind.!!

So I'm a 2025 engg graduate trying to find a job and the current condition of the job market is messing with my head. For some context i am an independent project consultant for a college's R&D dept and also a freelance trainer. I just graduated and am trying to find a job. It isn't like there is a huge skill gap because within the right context i am quite skilled. Maybe not the best but I'm not half bad. I was interning at an early stage AI startup but the company went bankrupt within a few months. And I was actually leading a team of interns and was carrying quite a bit of load while interning there.

I am making some money through the above mentioned gigs but it's about time I get an actual job.. not for the money cuz making money is not an issue but to gain work experience. If I have at least 1-2 years of work experience in IT I can play around with other options like higher studies or getting into other consultant roles.

But I've been trying to find a job, applying to about 50-70 companies every week but it seems like none of those openings are real. I did crack two offers in sales and operations but none of them justified the detour I'd be taking in my career. And lately I've lost hope in anything coming my as everyday I'm just disappointed and end up losing confidence in myself and my skills. I know that the current state of the job market is bad but at my level of desperation I'd take any offer lol.. and yet it is just disappointment after disappointment.

I'm sorry if you guys find me ranting a little annoying. I just needed to vent and maybe talk to somebody. Thanks for reading.