Feeling Empty in Life

I’ve been doing WFH for more than a year now, and most of my days looks like this I get and do some workout and start my work and in evening & during weekends I spend time on my PC usually playing games or just browsing around. I don’t really have any friends to talk to in person, and I rarely have the energy to talk to anyone on a call. Lately, it feels like I’m not really important to anyone.

I am not born rich but currently have a decent job and earn enough, but there’s no real sense of happiness or fulfillment. I can buy an iPhone or PS5 or a Bike which many dream of but still I will be in isolation with those things. I haven’t built any meaningful friendships or found a life companion yet. It feels like I spend more time with machines than with actual people. The few friends who call me will be mostly because they might need some help from me that's it.

Being an only child adds to that sense of isolation. I’ve had a traumatic childhood and even now which probably made it harder for me to connect with others. I’m still in my early twenties, but it already feels like I’m falling behind in life like I might not even get married anytime soon or experience the kind of companionship others seem to have. I did love a girl in school but after she went to college she was mostly talking to some other boy in her college and haven't spoke to me much and the relationship ended there It's typical love story these days but I did love her truly.

I guess some life problems have no solutions It is not like solving a coding problem maybe it is what it is actually meant to be, Some people might never deserve few things in their life It seems.